I think most people who work year round think that when teachers close the door to their classrooms for Summer break we are done working, are ready to relax and have multiple weeks to do anything and everything we want. This may be true for some teachers, but I think for many of us the first weeks off can be a blur and filled with so many thoughts and emotions. I know this last statement to be true for me.
I have been off for a couple of weeks and I have definitely not felt like I was on vacation. I still wake up at my alarm clock time. I am still getting up early. I still have all of my momsibilities. By no means am I complaining, but I woke up this morning with my to do list on my mind and did one of the worst things I do when I get up….I check all the apps.
Checking all the apps is such a habit. I really need to make it a priority to not open my eyes and think I need to check multiple email accounts, Instagram and Facebook. When I figure out how to do this I’ll let you know. I know I’m not the only person who does this.
During my morning scroll I was looking at all of the awesome things people are doing this summer. I love Instagram because it is visual and quick, but this morning it seemed like I was seeing endless summer fun and I found this to be overwhelming.
Don’t get me wrong, I am thrilled people are enjoying life, but I have no idea how they are there yet. It takes me a few weeks to unwind from school and after the year we have all had, I am finding it more difficult to feel like I can relax and enjoy summer. Like I said I woke with a to do list on my mind.
Ending the year and practically jumping into the 4th seemed fast and not like a holiday. I was also driving my mini me to camp the first week off. Thankfully we chose a close, afternoon camp to attend, but I was still in turbo mom mode. I also started looking around, my mostly tidy house, and started to think of all of the neglected nooks and crannies that need a reboot. So, a few days off and the brain can not shut off, the to do lists can not stop and that internal pressure of I’m not doing enough can not shut off.
What I’ve Done So Far
- Cleaned 20-21 teaching things out of my vehicle.
- Organized cupboards.
- Repotted some house plants.
- Cleaned my closet.
- Chauffeured child.
- Started packing and planning for family vacation.
I know this is not a crazy amount of things completed, but I feel guilty that I am not doing more, not squeezing every minute of productivity out of my day. I also realize this is a wackado way of thinking. My mental to do list needs to take a vacation.
What I Think “Needs To Be Done”
- Make more TpT resources.
- Organize my basement teacher area.
- Purge cupboards, closets and drawers.
- Redo child’s playroom.
- Paint front doors.
- Deep clean.
Notice zero relaxation or fun on my list. The list is reasonable and totally doable, but there needs to be a mental balance. Achieving this balance of projects and guilt free summer chill time is definitely going to be a challenge for me, but I know that rest is incredibly important, especially after this year of teaching.
What I Need for Balance
- Yoga(in person)
- Chats with friends
- Books….not teacher PD
- Family time
- Less screen time
- Netflix and chill
- See or do something new
- A little nature
- Ice cream
I think that if I can balance external responsibilities with internal responsibilities this could be a restful and productive summer vacation. Having these weeks off are a gift. I never take the time off for granted, that is definitely where some of the guilt and pressure comes from, but if I don’t reset my mind and body I won’t be the best teacher I can be for my students this September.
I am going to try my best to walk the talk!
- Complete tasks without feeling like I “have to”
- Have 1 lazy day per week
- Self care
- Spend time with friends
- Remember to breathe
- Spend quality time with my people
- Ignore the calendar
This is obviously the start of summer and I have weeks to go. I am going to add more posts about my summer balancing act, so check back for updates!
Creating balance is living with purpose.-The Listening Ladybug